Feeling Good

Lately I've been feeling good about not having a job, it's let me do some things I don't think I would've been able to do if I did have a job.  Been able to help friends, build more relationships with those friends, and just grow into a little more of a happier person.

It does, at times, get lonely here in the house by myself. Every now and then talk

ing to the dog like she can respond to my words!  I've been baking and trying new things. More muffins, Meatloaf, and my first fruit pie ever!  My peach and Apricot pie was awesome! 

 I brought it to our Bad Movie Nite gathering and I only ended up bringing home one slice. Crust was good, fruit was good, and the cinnamon/brown sugar filling was good. 

I even made the pie a lattice top...which is a little difficult, but once it's cooked, no one really cares if the lattice strips are actually interchanging correctly! (i'm not a martha stewart)

Aside from all the "fun" I'm having I am still looking for and applying for jobs almost everyday!

there's not many out there, at least in my area, for my qualifications...I mean sure there's like 40 housekeeping jobs, and 30 bus boy type jobs, and even 25 night shift jobs....but I'm very willing to find a job that's right for me! Good hours, quality company, and decent pay...well at least more than Unemployment!

HouseWarming

Paul and I just had our Housewarming party on Sat. It was a great turnout, with lots of food, and friends. We gave some tours, and shared a lot of laughs.  I'm glad people came, and from the look of things they really liked our new place!

Ein, the dog, was sooo shy, but by the last half hour people were here, she finally opened up and started walking around more and letting people pet her!  

I made my Pumpkin Pie muffins, Shrimp and Scallop Ceviche, Broccoli Salad, and Paul made a 7-layer dip !  We ordered pizza, (which we have some left over, so I think that will be lunch). MY friend Nikki brought Tres Leche cake, soo yummy!

We also combined our party into one of our Bad Movie Nites, Paul had us watch Attack of the Killer Tomatoes (which was really funny), and Killer Klowns from Outer Space...so stupid!

Girlie Girl

A girlie girl is what I am not.  I do appreciate girl things, like makeup, perfume, getting pedi's and manicures, and especially happy hours!  But it's more of the conversations that sometimes tend to go along with those events that I just don't feel I belong.  I don't obsess or drool over male movie actors, I don't yearn for a whole day of pampering at an expensive spa.  So going to brunch on a Sunday is...ok.  Even though I'd much rather hang out with friends and have a drink or two, than sit at home; I think it depends on who you go out with.  I love my girlfriends and some times it's the short meetings that are better than the long ones.  Small doses. Basically I sometimes go to outings to remind myself why I only do these on occasion.  

The conversations get to be mindless, and uninteresting, and sometimes (only sometimes) they can lead to bitchy-ness. I don't Need to wear makeup everyday, I don't Need to have my nails done, and wear the right shoes, or the outfit to match the bag, and personally I don't Want to either!

I think I enjoy doing some of these things alone.  I'd rather go get my pedicure by myself and really relax. I like shopping for clothes on my own terms and at my own pace (which is rather quick and efficient).  The only thing I'd like to do, that takes longer than 45 min., is reclining outside on my patio with a book and a chilled btl of wine, getting a little sun, and perhaps even falling asleep!

Japan and the unknown man

So my relationship is a little strained right now due to the fact that my boyfriend is most likely leaving in 5 months to go teach English in Japan. (There is a lot to it but I'm not going to go into complete detail. ONLY that hes leaving) I am in a way happy for him but there a part of me that is having a REALLY REALLY hard time, and I have been snapping at him lately. Not on purpose but because my feelings are hurt, and in turn hes getting mad at me. I guess this is going to be the true test to see if our relationship is going to last.

So I have been super bummy the past couple of days (I'm trying too not let it get to me) and today wasn't so peachy until I went to Safeway. (If I make eye contact with someone in an isle I usually smile and say hi in passing) Well today I was walking to the car after I got a few things and this guy comes up to me and says "Excuse me miss, I just wanted to let you know that I was having a really bad day and I just wanted to say thank you for that smile and hello in the isle. You are amazing." and then he walks away. All I could do was smile, it made my day. I think I liked that more then I guy telling me they think I'm attractive. So thank you random guy...that was much needed today.

What a week

Back to School

As of right now I'm debating over whether going back to school for nursing will be feasible.  I have the time, but it's the money that's the issue.  I can get up to $17k in loans from the gov. Which is nice at first, but it's the whole paying them back that worries me a bit.  The remaining 14k that I would owe the school, could either be paid in full, in partial payments as low as $430, or get a Sallie Mae loan.

I want to back to school, partly due to the economy, and I know there's a need for more nurses, plus I know it would always be a challenging job, and as of right now I want to work in pediatrics.

Classes start in August, so I still have time to think it over and get a part time job somewhere to save a little more money. 

So, anyone have some donations to help me go back to school?

Breathe

Maybe its because Im on my period but today isn't feeling right. I feel lame. So Im super happy that I am at my goal weight and I feel super good about myself. The boyfriend and I went the other day to get pedi's and mani's and he did the cutest thing and got his one toe done just like what my toes looked like. I didnt even ask him to do that...he just did it!!! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. We have so much fun together.

Here is the funk I'm in: NO JOB. I fell like less of a person. Im not Ants other half, I cant contribute to anything. I hate this. I hate sitting at home with nothing to do. He asked me yesterday when he got home what I did during the day and I feel lame saying "nothing, cleaned and hunted for jobs, thats all."

I know the answer, Breathe, it will be okay, you'll find a job. But it doesnt fix now. How I feel now. I'm tired of crying and feeling like this.

Gotta dog!

So the new addition to the family has been taking up some awesome time these past few days.  Our sweet girl 'Ein' came home on Wednesday (1st).  We've gone to the vet already, got her checked out, and we'll be going back on the 10th for some booster shots. then after that she can have play dates! (that is if she'd play).  She's about 10 mths-1yr old according to the vet. Sadly she does not play. It's weird. What dog doesn't know how or want to play a little tug-o-war, or fetch, or even carry a soft squeaky toy in it's mouth. 'Ein' doesn't!  We think she's A. never been around other dogs to really know what to do, and/or B. she was taught to be very submissive, perhaps she was the runt of the litter!?  We're not sure, but perhaps taking her to some Petsmart Beginner Training classes might help.

She's very much the lap dog, love's my husband and I.  Wags her tail when we come home, or even come down the stairs, she doesn't understand stairs either...that you can magically move your legs upon each step and it takes you to the top!  But for now that's actually working out for us, because the cat('Sknow') doesn't really like it.  'Ein' chased her up the stairs last night, so funny, but glad no one got scratched. 

Here she is after stealing her Aunt Tameys front seat in the car!

We love her, I love her, and she loves us.  That's all that matters.  Check out my facebook page if you'd like to see more pics of 'Ein'

OH and her name is from an Anime series called Cowboy Bebop, it's a nifty show. Anyway there's a dog just like her, named 'Ein'  like if you were to say Einstein. So we named her after the cute dog in that show!