Slow Going, With My Head High

I've still been applying to many many nursing jobs, little to no feed back, good or bad. It's frustrating at times, but I still keep chugging along. Thank goodness I still have BevMo to keep me sane....well sort of. There are a few fellow employees who are....not quite up to par. It's unfortunate, I wish their brains could just click, and things would flow better and faster and we could all help each other out, then in turn help all our customers efficiently and effectively. They are all very very nice, sweet spirits all around, but each one has a bit of a flaw that seems to put a chink in the chain. One's slow as molasses and it's almost painful, you wanna help them, but you don't want to butt in and make them feel inferior or over step your boundaries. Another is just simple-minded and is an airhead much of the time. The last is an older employee and by older I mean 60+, and well its just a generation thing, slower, slightly cranky, but like I said, they're all very nice friendly people. Just sometimes, I wish I didn't have to deal with them, although they give us great stories to tell at dinner time.

I'll love the day when I get a much better pay check and can contribute more to my family, and therefore start having a family, well a bigger family any way!

Thats all for now. Thanks for tuning in.

Lets call it an Adventure!!

I've been thinking about how to word this all week so here goes nothing!

So sometimes I feel like I'm flying by the seat of my pants. (by the way I've had a glass of wine already and I'm supposed to be packing my house.) Work, moving, everything else is a lot right now.

I don't like moving but we have to...long story I wont get into details but we aren't able to get a place that we really want yet so we are moving to the "In-laws" which is going to test our relationship and it scares me. We are a team but I don't like the stress that I see happening. I'm going to have to commute 2 hours each way and with his long hours I pray that the love that we have for each other gives us the patients when the road gets rough.

Work, well that's interesting too. It's been a hard group to get into and some people there make you feel like an outsider. I'm not there to compete with anyone, but if someone asks my opinion or if I don't understand something I'm going to ask or tell them. Its a tough group and sometimes I just hide in my office. Maybe I do talk a lot but its only so they can get to know me, but it was pointed out the other day that some people don't like that I talk so much and that's hard.

All of this I guess I have to look at as an adventure, otherwise I know that its all going to get to me and that may distroy who I am as a person.

Never been here before

Other then being crazy busy with my new job I have to say I've never been here before...100% content. Yep, that's right, I have always felt that there was something missing in my life, wither it be with work or personal but as of this moment I feel full and complete.

I am happy with work, I am happy with my relationship and I am overall happy with life. Do I wish some times I had more money or brand new things? SURE I do, who doesn't? But those things do not make me who I am. I do not need those things to be happy or complete. I need all that I have and if grander things come my way then so be it, I will work towards them, please don't get me wrong, but I will not dwell on what I don't have. I only look at what is in front of me or beside me and Love it. All of it. I am blessed and I don't take that for granted.